Lately I've been feeling down and sad about something. And right now , I just hope for the better, that things will change, cause its not the end of the world just because of something. Though it would be best if it got better, but if it can't , I've already tried my best to make it better, and I won't be full of regrets.

Watch the tv show Dexter on youtube, so nice to watch you know? Its about this guy who works for the police to take blood from murder victims to analyze. Then when he has this urge to kill people, so who does he kill? He kills people who escape justice, e.g man knocks down person but no guilty

Its nice and worth your time to watch.

See this guy on the left? he's dexter, the killer.

lol i sound like i reviewing some tv show.

One thing that has been bothering me lately is the fact that my cd and dvd drive cannot read cd/dvd!!! The problem with that is I cannot install computer games such as Granado Espada or Black and White 2 , or just burn cd!!!

Must Remember to get it fixed!!!

Tomorrow got oral exam, I wonder need to study or not? Hope I know how to read every single chinese word i come across. Hope for the better!

I'm feeling down in the dumps right now...all because of 1 person whom i wanna be good friends with. I wanna talk to her, but she doesnt really wanna talk to me...we used to click earlier this year, but now...its as if i'm just some stranger to her. I always get the feeling that, if i dun go talk to her for a month, she won't care a single bit...then just drift apart as if nothing happened...
Why do I get this feeling? Why???

Lately, I feel like i have few friends. I just cant shake this feeling away... I ask myself, I want to watch a movie, who should i ask? who will wanna go? and i always have this feeling no one will want to go. Why? can anyone tell me why?
I ask myself, which of my friends i count as my close friends, then i realise that i might not be so to them.
And i wonder, how do you define a good or close friend? Won't ignore you? Take initiative to talk to you? Both enjoy each other's company? If like that, I feel I have little close friends, and I hate this stupid feeling sia...any advice ma ruihan?

Bored....yawning nowadays and waking up at 5.55am instead of my usual 5.45-50am. Never sleep a single afternoon since last week i think, and right now my eyes damn tired too...sooner or later going to become panda le..

Had sjab training today, same old same old stuff la...physical training,first aid, but had toc la..transportation of casualty for those who dunno and now my hands going to have blisters again, been a month or so since i had blisters and they arn't very pleasant.
Ate durian icecream after sjab and it taste heavenly u know! Everyone must try!

Wah nowadays no show watch, my favourite show Heroes end le, and must wait till Fall then got show again , which is around september i guess. Lucky I reading Samurai X manga nowadays, and its damn nice lor and i dun mind lending to any1 read.

Anyways i go read it now..

I can't seem to think of anything to post about...

Setback. I just suffered at setback that i truly deserve...failed 3 subjects in my mid year. Science 49.5/100 , Geography which i want to take next year as elective...44.5/100 and maths which i believed i put in effort in..42/100. As for hcl, 57/100 which my problem was getting to little multiple choices correct... My lit 54/100 which i don't really care cause i don't wish to take it next year. And lastly my only subject I did well in, english, miss wong told me i got 68/100, said my compo good, cant believe it cause I personally hated my story and found it boring. Funny, my english compositions that I find my story lousy always get good marks from teacher. Paper1 should be 34/50 also cause i got 34/50 for paper2. And luckily i want to take elective geog and full history, which many people not interested in so high chance of getting into that stream even if my geog dun do well, next term history must do well then.

Hai....I wish didnt do so badly....but too let for regret anyway. Right now I really want to study hard for next semester, and get good results. My dad always says I'm lazy not stupid, well right now i truly agree with that. I dunno why but I always need a setback like this to make me do well. Like my maths which got C6 for midyear, i studied harder then got A1 for final year, so is that proof I can do well if i choose to??? I think so...

Hmm, do I have an attitude problem??? Heard from some people that I have...sad to hear that cause I would really like to know the examples so I won't do it again...haha like my terrible temper, which has cooled down since. I used to shout at people to shut up, but now ask politely for someone to lower his or her volume. But if people say have then must be have reason la, so whoever thinks I have attitude problem, can uhh tell me ma? cause i dun mind critism cause it helps build a better person in me =)

And today is shannen's birthday, happy birthday to her!

I wish you would care, I wish you would talk to me, and I wonder if I'm still your good friend even? Seems not to me...it it cause i'm a guy or something??? Sux la! I rather just be your good friend and forget being others first! Seldom talk, seldom chat, seldom anything...I don't get it and hate it -.-

I wish you would reply my smses even though its been a long time since you received it.
It doesnt mean that I like you but you don't, then we can't still be good friends...
You wanna know why I told u so early? Because I was afraid that you will find me strange or irritating smsing you all the time...don't you know???

I dunno if you like me the way I like you, or you don't even treat me as a person you care for...
and this feeling hurts...the way you avoid talking to me or just don't care if we talk or not...really makes me sad cause I'm doing the opposite thing...caring about you, wanting to talk to you more, if not we would surely drift apart.

And the way you talk to me sometimes, it sounds cold, devoid of caring and feeling. I miss the warm feeling that your words gave when we talked last time...

So you see this le get what i'm trying to say?

Sadded.....by the fact that i didnt do well for my maths and hcl. Maths i'm going to get E8 in my report book according to my maths teacher. Wish I nvr last minute then go and study for it...well at least I tried, and I'm going to do better the next time !

I just woke up and decided to update my blog cause lately nvr update, and its cause my sister is always in my room..how to do? Wanted to go cycling later with junjie but its raining heavily.
I wonder what I will do for the rest of the day...

Done with all my exams except HCL which is tmr, hope i do well, cause i didnt do well for the maths paper today! Lost 25marks in the sectionB alone, hai....think i no need to get xbox360 this june holidays le.
Well at least still going to have free time le, hmm speaking about that, who got watch Heroes??? If you want i can lend cause the show is super nice to watch! And who wanna watch movies huh??? 28weeks later? That movie is nice, i think, cause i watch the 1st movie, 28days later. Too bad i dun think anyone would be interested, if got tell me la.

ZzZzZz.....seldom talk to her nowadays, quite sian leh..hope is just the exams la, cause its really sian.......seems that my luck draining out of me nowadays, washing my hair with soap by accident, doing lousy in exam papers, and this too.

Oh ya, has anyone heard of this singer? Panda Xiong Tian Ping , quite old one, but nice chinese songs by him though i only have 2 of them, and does anyone have ocean ou de yang cd ma? lend me please, heard his song on radio recently and found it quite pleasent.

So if have tell me , thanks.