That's me in the center!





cool photo right! the guy in the front is my teacher

Today went out for lunch at nex with kaiyuan they all. Went to kaiyuan's house play rockband after that. Quite fun.

Today was the last wushu lesson of the year. It was the most interesting lesson of all. We practiced punching and kicking on those things you see us holding in the photos.
Prior to this lesson, I was feeling pretty confident about my wushu. I thought, 6mths liao, now must be quite pro. NOT...
Turns out punching and kicking not as easy as it looks. My punches like damn weak like that, not much impact. My teacher says we must do 20 knuckle pushups everyday then add 5 after 1 month. It's to make our wrist and fist stronger.
Normally I wouldn't have the motivation to do this kinda stuff, but today's lesson really showed me how much stronger I need to be. And besides, if I don't train , I'll just suffer more during lesson.

Gonna sleep now. cya!

Often or not, I sometimes just feel sian...moody....down in the dumps...sad.... for some reason. Usually it's the combination of paranoia and current events in my life.

Today is no exception.

I think when I'm feeling sian like I am now... I've got a few options to deal with it.

1. Go practice wushu - hopefully the sweat and pain will distract me and allow me to find relaxation in something I love.

2. Go listen to nice music and sing my heart out- hopefully my mood will improve somehow, or I might just end up singing sad songs, which would probably result in more self-pity.

3. Talk to someone about it , though I think I can't always find somebody to talk to all the time.

4. Go do homework/study.

I've got 3 weeks left to study math chem econs geog gp. Hmm....I hope I can make it.
Really. I don't want to start 2011 on a bad note.

Chitann's bday chalet was GREAT !

Had lots of fun :)

My maid just went back indonesia, and will come back only 2 weeks later. SIAN...

2 more wushu lessons left this year. That's really fast....6mths just past like that. Glad I joined wushu!
Next year I'll be moving on to the intermediate course, which is 8mths long instead and I'll be learning harder stuff and probably more hands on fighting.

Time to start on my work...like now.

Why's it always complicated?

Today wushu damn xiong! 1hr 15mins without any break at all!!!!

But I survived somehow.

Tmr going cage, then going out with acjc ppl. :)

Glad its over. :)

Feels different somehow.

And I gotta stop complaining infront of my friends!

Glad its over. :)

Haiz........
What do you do when somebody you care about say this about you.

I thought we are different from others but no, I was wrong. I thought we could still go out have lunch once you asked me out but no, I don't wish to anymore. I thought you've changed but no, you didn't. It's still YOU.

Always like this. She's angry at me for dunno what reason. Always the same old reason.
I'm always left clueless as to what I did wrong...
Plenty of times I've just ate humble pie, and said sorry for whatever I did, not knowing what I did.
Many a times I wonder is it really me who's done something wrong, or is it just her being oversensitive.

Today, I thought she just needed time to cool off. But then I saw what she wrote on facebook.

I really feel like crying right now, because a friend I really care about doesn't wanna be my friend anymore.

Is life this cruel?

Just came back from my cousin's wedding. Glad to see my whole extended family again. The next time I will see them again is probably CNY. Can't wait for that.

Seeing the bride and groom at the wedding just now, I wondered if my turn would come 10years or so from now. Then I started to wonder what my life in the next 10 years will be like...the people that I'll meet, the new experiences, and when will I meet that special someone.
I have many questions in my head about what life will be like in 2020.

Will I still be close with the bball guys?
Will I still be in contact with acjc ppl? sjab ppl?
What kind of job will I have? lol or will I have a job?
Will I have a girlfriend?
What will my family be like?
Who will be my close friends?
Will I be poor ? Will I be rich?
Will I even live to see 2020?

Here's a rough timeline of the next 10years.

18 yrs old ---> 2011: A Levels, Graduate from ACJC
19 yrs old --->2012: Army
20 yrs old --->2013: Army
21 yrs old --->2014: University
22 yrs old --->2015: University
23 yrs old --->2016: University
24 yrs old --->2017: University/Working
25 yrs old --->2018: Working
26 yrs old --->2019: Working
27 yrs old --->2020: Working.....

Here's what I want to have by the time I'm 30 years old.
A stable job that pays well and isn't some cubical job. A girlfriend. A car. Enough money to buy a flat. Get married. Have children.
That's the dream anyway...oh ya I haven't forgotten. I wanna take a sea-side train in japan with my future soul-mate !
In order to do all those stuff, I need to work hard...study hard...and everything.
First need to get ALL As for A lvls...then go good university...get good grades again. And finally somehow find a job and climb my way to the top.

The next 10years of my life will determine how I live the rest of my life!

Today wushu was quite xiong. Left 6more lessons only.
I think I've improved quite alot and I'm really proud of myself! I can do front split on my right leg and I can bend my back backwards and reach the ground! ( its called xia yao )
I feel damn good after each lesson! I feel fitter and more healthy and through wushu I sorta know how to fight now!


It's December already. 1 month left to do homework and catch up on all the topics that I not sure of this year. Don't wanna screw up again.

I kinda miss sa7 . Seldom see most of them now. Everyday is a fun day with them.

Gonna slp now. cya!