Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Great Job Shi Min, Lydia , Pei ling!
Didn't expect to win anything at all today!
Not only did we win the best video prize, we got 1st too!

Damn happy. Felt my performance during the case was pretty good. Reminiscent of FAC years.
Glad that most of my skills not rusty, like controlling crowd, reporting and reassuring.

Damn tired.Sian. Want sleep. Still got geog test havent study. lol die le la...

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Just realized how much I miss Tzinyi and Corrine . Like seriously. Was trying to sleep then I Started thinking of Zhss days, and I compared it with acjc. I suddenly recalled all the special moments I had with Corrine . The many times we walked to the interchange after school together. How we both came back sch during study break like a week before O levels chiong geog, and how we camwhored.
How I remember always chatting with tzinyi . All the good times we had. Vietnam trip and all... Though some of these memories are already becoming  foggy. 
I looked through all the letters and notes I got from them last time. And I immediately started to get a weird feeling in my chest. As I read each one of them, the feeling got stronger. 

... I really miss these 2 good friends of mine. The friendship I have with them is irreplaceable... No one in acjc is anything like them!

I'm going to SMS them Tmr! I must take the initiative and ask them out!

I seriously miss my time in Zhss. Acjc may be fun, but it's superficial compared to my memories at Zhss!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Nowadays I'm just living each day as it comes.
Life has gotten monotonous.
Its like I have no social life ...
go school still okay, TCSS with friends.
But come home I'm like a loner, don't talk to friends online as much as before le.
So sian. :( Makes me feel damn alone.
Come home either just sleep, watch tv , use com or study ( actually never really study... )

Can't wait for this long weekend. Seriously. Can finally play ball.
Tomorrow going orchard area celebrate chi ho and li yun's birthday.. So sian...must wear nice nice. Must go hougang mall buy jeans or pants. Mafan...

Then still must go orchard early buy godiva chocolate for liyun's present. Well not bad...maybe I can do some window shopping at orchard.

I should stop sianing all the time. -.-

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

2 days in a row that I've had trouble sleeping. I think i've only slept total 5-6 hours in the past 24 hours .
Yesterday damn bloody tired cuz Sunday nvr sleep enough. Decided not to nap in the afternoon so that at night can sleep easier.
In the end I slept at 3+ am yesterday. I tried sleeping at 11am, so that means it took me 4 hours to fall asleep.
So today I decided to chiong home nap and study at night.
I slept from 4pm to 7pm. Been awake since. Same problem as yesterday...
I HATE INSOMNIA.

Fuck this la seriously. This is by far the worst week of term 2. 2 straight days of insomnia...
Tmr still got cca... Then at night still must go wushu. Dunno got time study or not...
Chem test on Thursday. Zzzzzzzzz
I look forward to wushu. But damn sian if I am damn tired when I during wushu...
Then fucking thursday still need to stay back until 6pm. Total got 1 hr of break for the whole day somemore...wtfffffff
Go home still must edit fucking cca video for submission.
Fucking hell!

I want pon tmr cannot...cuz must film the vid usin my vid cam.
Pon thursday also cannot cuz got Chem spa..chen test.
Fuckkkkk !

Sunday, April 10, 2011

I feel depressed.
I don't have much confidence in my studies anymore...
Saturday seems wasted... Slept the whole day because of my flu . Didn't manage to study much. 
I feel like a failure :(
I feel dumb. I feel stupid.
I feel weak. I feel hopeless.
I feel sad .
I Don't know how I'm going to tackle my studies... Nothing seems to be right. I'm lagging in Every subject...
Pw results really hit me hard.
It seems that I'm not putting in enough effort...

I feel really really tired...
I hope things will get better soon cuz the mood I have right now is killing my spirits.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Had a bad dream this morning. Dream that I got a B for my A lvl math. In my dream, my teacher was going through the a lvl paper answers, and I got quite a few wrong. :/
I gotta work hard and make sure bad dreams like this won't true!

Friday, April 08, 2011

Got B for pw.
Feeling kinda sucks when 70% of the cohort got A for pw.
As the group leader, I also feel partly responsible for my group's grade.

Haiz...was really expecting an A.

Sian.

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Sian. Weekend wasted. Domino effect. Too damn tired on friday night that even sleeping till 11 the next day wasn't enough.
Only highlight of my weekend was dinner with janicia on friday. Fun! should do it more often!
Wushu was fun too. Except that my muscle now aching...

I should really follow what I write in my organiser.