Tuesday, December 27, 2011

How much is too much?

Sunday, December 25, 2011

I'm pretty pissed right now -.-

Saturday, December 24, 2011

I don't think about it that much , and when I do think about it, I'm really not sure . But somehow I wish the possibility is there, but as it is right now, that door seems to be firmly shut.
So see how la.

I was looking forward to meeting Janicia today for dinner, but unfortunately she nt free, so must wait till Sunday.
Can't wait for next week! Can finally play bball! And can go orchard shop for shoes and clothes with Toh :)

Friday, December 23, 2011

I hope the good times never end :)

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Today was a surprisingly great day :)
Went to downtown east ehub with max and RP. arcade super fun. Bowled too. And watched " we bought a zoo "
Then had dinner. Lol dunno why today just so fun.
Looking forward to the next time I go out with my wushu classmates :)

Had a bad dream last night that felt super real. I was hiding under a desk while some kind of monster attacked a bunch of people.

Recently I've started to think about the worst-case scenario for my alvl results and what my future plans were.
If I can't get into nus faculty of arts, or smu social science or something . I probably will be going Australia or the uk to study .
I'm seriously very thankful that my parents are willing and able to support me in going abroad to study should the need arise.
I really admire them for planning so far ahead for their future and my future.
I was very worried the night before that my parents wouldn't be able to afford sending me overseas to study , since on average it costs about 30k plus a year in tuition fees alone.
But they assured me that it was within their means to do so.
I'm really just thankful. But personally I really hope I can get into nus faculty of arts and study Japanese studies, cuz if i go overseas, I probably won't be doing an arts major.

I'm looking forward to next week ! :)

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Wish I had someone to talk to :/

Sunday, December 18, 2011

I better not get my hopes up.

Today was a great day!
Ate brunch ajisen with Toh at hougang mall. She accompanied me to make my specs at kovan after that . Glad she was there to help me with choosing the specs. :)

I had planned to take a good nap when i got home. Unfortunately, there was a Malay wedding downstairs near my block, then they were blasting so much music. Can't blame them since it's a joyous occasion for them .
Slept only like 1hr.

Gonna watch manutd match now. Hope Tmr was just as enjoyable as today( lol but I doubt so)

Friday, December 16, 2011

I feel so sad. Like no one to talk to :(
I have friends like no friends like that sometimes...
Can't wait for wushu tmr.. at least got friends to talk to .

I miss some of my friends, dunno if the feelings' mutual.

Ah heck it la! I'm trying too hard.

I don't know how I'm going to make my dream come true. Hope I can succeed before I'm 30. To do that I need 2 requirements.
I'll need a good job that pays well and also meet the right person for me.
Haiz. I've got 10 years to fulfill my dreams!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Like a Lion fighting off a pack of Hyenas.

Another great day today :)

Sunday, December 11, 2011

So damn bored...
I feel like a loafer at home sia.
Only thing that I'm looking forward to is Tmr!

Friday, December 09, 2011

Ok put on hold first .

There are so many things that I want to tell you.

Thursday, December 08, 2011


Today played bball with the guys. Had a really great time :)

Damn tired now...gonna watch modern family and then go sleep.

I'm confused because I don't know what I want. I'm not sure if I'm willing to risk it all.

Wednesday, December 07, 2011

I wish I can go back to sec 1 . Start all over again, so that I can make things right. My memories of sec 1 is foggy, but I think I had a chance back then. If only I knew the right things to say and do. Regret man...seriously regret. Now it seems impossible. I don't even have the courage to try.

Tuesday, December 06, 2011

Lately I've been feeling rather down. Everyday stay at home, play games watch tv only...I feel as if I've got no life like that. I yearn to meet up with my friends, but believe it or not I fear rejection. I'm pretty sian if like I ask ppl out, then they say they not free . If too many ppl tell me they're not free, then I'll feel damn sian and demoralised...

Went out with Toh yesterday! Was good fun! glad that there isn't awkward silence or anything whenever we meet even though it's been so long since we last met. :)
I never found a single friend as great as her in acjc. Thanks goodness I went to zhss!


Anyway, darryl is coming over for fifa later! lol hope i can finally win him!
And the weather is perfect for bball today sia! Sian...

Sunday, December 04, 2011

Sigh...
Always say met up after alvls, meet up after alvls.
But when it's really after alvls, no one really initiates anything :/
Even when I try to strike up a convo or something, it seems kinda dead...
HAiz.....